Reflection of 2012

The year 2012 will forever be another “pillar” or “stone” in my spiritual walk that will be a constant reminder of who God is. This past year has been a reminder of His faithfulness and that His power and will are greater than all others! As 2012 began, I never dreamed that by the end of the year I would become a proud momma of a sweet little boy. After being married 12 years and wishing and praying for a child for more than half of this time, God answered our prayer. At the beginning of last year, I had focused all of my attention on my job, husband, and home. I had given my desires over to the Lord and was content with life. I had really convinced myself that God had other plans for me. I’m so thankful that His plans are better than mine and His ways are higher than my ways. What an amazing year!

On to 2013… what does God have in store for this year? As I give this year over to the Lord and make my plans, I ask that His will be done. For I know that His plans far exceed my dreams and desires. Thinking on a new year, there has been a song that God keeps bringing to my heart. It's by Matt Redmond and the title of the song is Never Once. As I look back over the past year and the challenges and blessings we experienced, God is always faithful! The chorus of this song says, " Never once did we ever walk alone. Never once did You leave us on our own. You are faithful, God you are faithful." There is nothing more comforting or fulfilling than knowing that I'm being held in His hands. He is a God who loves and cares. So be encouraged today! Whatever situation you're going through, God is WAY bigger and asks us only to trust Him. 

On a lighter note, our little cutie just turned 3 months old and I can't believe how fast he is changing. He's starting to have so much personality.

He jabbers away and laughed for the first time this past Monday. He melts my heart every time he smiles at me. Even the other night I was feeding him his bottle and all of a sudden he stops and just smiles. I wanna just eat'em up! Although, he may be working me now as if it will pay off later... this momma's gotta work on her "soft" heart!! He started daycare on January 7, and I must say that was such a difficult day for me. Caleb did great but my heart was broken. It is comforting to know he is in the same building where I work and it does help that I'm able to see him usually once throughout the day. This past Wednesday, I had my lunch/ recess break and was able to be with him and feed him. Fridays are the easiest because I know he's at home with daddy! God is truly helping me as each day gets a little easier. I know that God has called me to teach for now and that He'll provide everything needed to do His will- including taking care of Caleb... and me! -And He even provides snow days which allowed me a 4 day weekend!!! One night this past week I was sharing with God my heart on this issue and He reminded me that this is just a season. So for now I'm going to do my best "as unto the Lord" at my job, being a mommy, and a wife. I'm choosing to enjoy this time of my life instead of complain because I know God has it under control.